There seems to be something BIG looming on the horizon.
Big creative processes have come to an end:
My manuscript is finished. I will have it back from my editor in September. My first fiction-book!
A soul-gift I have prepared for a friend’s 50 years birthday – which I have working with for 6 months is just finished.
I do not know what lies ahead for me, but it is big
The sharing-sessions between Kit and me on Skype go right down to the essential: “you are the sky – the rest is just weather”
Sensing in our body how we are taken out of the Now each time we believe in the stories our ME brings up – all the weather – and the repeated discovery of how the Sky is eternally the same, and the sweetness of it
The Now becomes rigid, becomes TIME = past and future, regrets and fear – each time this “person”, this bundle of habits, is given the reigns
We were talking about listening to false ideas and believing in them and there was a big noise from her place in the city: a plane, very close – I experienced it as a symbol of what we were talking about: listening to – not a bird, the symbol of a messenger of spirit. but a mechanical bird – a man-made “lie”
and in that second I was given the thought “You manifested this”
No, Kit and Leelah did not – but Spirit did – and It also let me know: look out. there will be many more, and powerful. This is the manifesting power of the unified mind.”
Strong emotions coming up lately: wild rage – sitting with it – mixed it with a me and “story” and felt awful – remembering to just witness it as energy, the wild animal we all have inside – my wild black puma stretched herself out in the sun and purred a mighty purr and smiled at me
More and more watching. more and more tenderness – and moments where suddenly some wild energy pours through me and seem to control me completely – but it lasts short -
I visited my homeopath and teacher today – he has given me Sulphur 1m and it feels perfect. And while he was going into stories of himself, I was noticing that I did NOT feel invaded: I listened closely, quite outside of the habitual mode of prison and anger, and commented from a new and wake state
I told him I had no idea about which direction I was going, but it felt awesome and solid and powerful – I just was “a little confused” right now -
Then: two huge sound-signals. I asked him what that was: he told me that there was a BIG ship signaling to a little ship that it had to move. The big one could not move out if its direction – so the little one had to, not to be crushed.
We looked at each other and smiled. I told him that now I could relax and stop trying to control my days – I just needed to get out of the way when I was told to:)
the hug today was SO good :)
In the garden behind the old house where he works, our Kabbalah group planted a tree as a start of 7 years deep process. I noticed today how tall and wonderful it was, and gave it a long hug. We felt very close :)
I walked down to the City to get my pills. A BIG policeman guided me past two big blocks into the street where the Ministry of Foreign Affairs had its offices. A shiny black car stopped in front of the block, a window opened and a gray-haired man held out a hand with an ID. It was thoroughly inspected. The one block that I thought was made of cement was lifted off: it was made of plastic. The car drew through the blocks, and was stopped again 10 feet ahead by another policemen wanting ID. I smiled to the policeman, he smiled back. Some big visitor is obviously expected, and there seems to be fear of terrorism.
I will lift the blocks to Truth when It comes
nothing can stop it
It can’t be killed
In town, I found a very very small garden inside a stone-desert.Here it is:
here you can see HOW small it was – and how adorable